2/7/09

ER = NO

trag-e-dy - a dramatic composition,dealing with a serious or somber theme, typically that of a great person destined through a flaw of character or conflict with some overpowering force, as fate or society, to downfall or destruction. Tragedy can happen in many forms, I never thought I would experience anything of this nature- well at least not yet cuz I’m only twenty tree. For the past month I have been experiencing discomfort on my chest, like a heavy feeling, you know the feeling you get when you are nervous or anxious? That one, now imagine that feeling doesn’t go away… ANNOYING!! So I did what I do best and overlooked it cuz it wasn’t really effecting me extremely…oh no no no the body catches up with yo ass. When I woke up on early the next morning I took one deep breath and I thought it was going to be my final, I felt a prickly pain on my chest that travelled all around my chest area. First thing I did was call kenza and tell her to come to the rescue, we talked about it and she influenced me to go to the hospital. EWWWWWW I HATE the ER we knew it was going to be a waiting game but we went anyway. I registered got my vitals down, they asked me if i ever spent the night at the hospital and I waited. A lil bit into the wait the pain got worse; it almost certainly thought hey I’m at the hospital WHY NOT. I curled up into a ball and couldn’t help but start crying tears just kept falling on the ground. I made kenza promise NOT to call our mummi cuz there was no need to shock her but she snuck away from me and did nonetheless. When mummi got there, she babied me some more, then she yelled at the nurses which made them push my chart from #9 to #2 I had to get a chest xrays done, they hooked me up a bunch of wires to do a stress test and I cried throughout the entire process because I wanted to know what the hell was wrong with me. To end the story the Doc ended up telling me it is in fact stress related, I need to take care of me, look out for me, take it easy at work and just relaaaaaaaaaaaaax he said here take this *slipped a pill under my tongue* 20 min later I couldn’t tell you what happened if my life depended on it lol I was KNOCKED THA F*&$# OUT. Throughout this messed up journey, it had brought me close to certain people old/new, people I had no idea genuinely cared…really did care, I’m so thankful for the amazing souls around me, it truly means a lot and thank you for all the prayers :) Vacation soon?!?? I THINK YES. Love yous, Neb

14 comments:

Heyhomee said...

S'funny how tragic events such as these in our lives bring light to what's really important. You truly don't know what you got til it's gone. Glad you made it through. Keep on keepin' on!

Nebby said...

aw thank you :)
It's been so many things at once but the biggest thing for me was work and taking on new responsibilities while trying to maintain older ones. I need to balance everything out and i should be A- OK :)

Nicki said...

Lorazepam right? That's the drug he slipped under your tongue I bet. I have to take it every time I have an anxiety attack and boy does it work! I recently went on stress leave on Doc's orders because of how stressful work is and it takes a toll on your body. Anxiety attacks are not fun and I get them to the point where I'm telling who ever is with me at the hospital that I will see them on the other side and I ain't playin'. It literally feels like you're gonna die. My doc said the same to me, take care of yourself, relax, don't take on too many things at once, get rid of all the negativity, even suggested counseling. Point of my post is that you are not alone. Its hard to think that you aren't because you seriously feel like you're going crazy but 95% of the population has anxiety attacks whether they are minor ones or severe ones. Re-evaluating your life, writing certain things down is a good stress reliever! We're too blessed and beautiful to be stressed so take care of yourself girl! A vacay will do a body good! :)

Tonya Marie said...

awwwwwww neb! don't things like that make you appreciate life and the people around you even more? don't let it be a temporary appreciation though...make it permanent! take it easy babygirl and make everyday a vacation ;)

xx

Anonymous said...

get well soon miss lady

Natalie said...

"I should be A- OK"??

You will be!!! but try reward yourself for all that you've done, so take a little vacay soon missy and I hope you feel better

xxo

p.s. you'll find the balance maybe hard at first but one you have it you'll realise how much easier everything is.

Anonymous said...

i love u.

The Definition said...

Sounds like the same thing that happened to my mom about 6 or 7 months ago. You should get yourself a "check person" because sometimes its hard to check yourself. She's my mom but when she's doing too much I straight up tell her to chill the fuck out. Remember to take time out for you in the midst of all your other activities. GWS, we [your readers] luv yous too.

Nebby said...

:) you guys are really sweet and i appreciate all the advice and yes Nicki thats what the devil drug is called and even tho i wanna get up and run around and do the million and one things that i have in my calendar that pill makes me chill the fuck out, although i would NOT want to depend on it. I'm gonna try my best to take it one day at a time.

Jai. said...

Nebula girrrrllllll get your ass to someone's beach quick! lol I hope you feel better though. peace.

Janine said...

Nebby, m'dear...please take care of yourself. When I talk to my mom, one of the first things she always asks me is "what did you do for yourself today?" If you have to think about it for more than five seconds, it's time to devote a little time to yourself. Continue to be the go-getter seem to be, but make sure you put your well being first. ((((e-hugs))))

Vashni said...

hey girl i must admit. i check on the segment everytime i remember to blog... found it through OC... keep up the good work.. oh & lemme know what was up with the chest pain.. i been having the SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME damn thang..

much love.

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